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A * indicates a new poem...Of all the tears that I have criedNone were as bitter as the ones for youFor you I would have slowly diedBut now you're gone and I never knewThat being alone without you nearWas better than being without you hereFor being empty with a glorious dreamGave me some peace, a guiding beamBut now my dream has faded awayDusty and dirtyLocked to decayAnd I walk, my heart black as coalWithout ever hoping to repair my lost soul*I am without youAlone in a place where time makes no differenceMaybe someday the times I have cried outAgonizing pitiful whispersFor youWill make a differenceMaybe I will feel the beauty of your chivalrous embraceSinking in the depth of your soulDeep within shakenBy the perfection of existing for only you*Words cause wordsWhether out of anger or intangible loveThey reach placesOnly thoughts moving at lightning speed catch a glimpse ofThey give "I love you"It's meaningAnd it's ironyThey express everythingBut the deepest emotionsThose ones there are none forEnveloping all those thingsRacing in my mind, waitingOn the tip of your tongue*You take my face in your handsFor a fraction of the kiss we were sharingYou look in my eyesAnd yours glimmerWith recognition, and loveA feeling not easily deniedYour soft touch a burdenOn my already heavy heartBut you know that all good things never lastSo you take my face in your handsAnd softly sewYour gaze to mine*Flip on a light in the darkLead me out of hereFor my heart is getting heavySalvation never nearMy tears, always comingMy feet, always slowPeople should be knowingBut people never knowHow I wish I knew a wayHow I want a pathTo love, to joy, to everythingEscaping all this wrathBut light gives way to darknessDiamonds way to glassRubies way to vagabondsDignity to class*The pain swelling in my heartYou could never understandThe loneliness in my heartYou could never comprehendThe tears watering my inner painYou'd never feelFor I am the ruler of that all hurtsThat caresses and comforts my fearsAnd never releases my wildest dreams, for fear that I might somedayBe happy*Put me underDrown me in itWrap me in a spellI want to say I never loved youBut my dear, oh wellI love you moreThan birds could singThan birds could ever flyBut then you had to disappearAnd our love must dieAnd though I shakeWhen I see your faceIt is that smile I must replaceFind a soul brighter than yoursOne that shines a brighter shadeBut I deeply, deathly fearThat that one has not been madeWhose eyes gleam bluerThen the ocean in your eyesOne who has wingsAnd flies through the skiesOne that will love meMore than I, youBut I fear, darlingThere is nothing to doFor you are my dreamMy hope all in oneYou are my moon,And more often, my sunHow could I everLose you to the tideMy heart, love, is dyingWay deep insidePlease don't leave meAlone to this holePlease don't leave meDestroying my soul*Faded scentsLeft over starsGazing at youLike you at the carsWe sat in a silenceNot easily brokenIt seems that your smileWas just a tokenEasily lostEasily spentYou could do nothingOr make a dentUsed for the usefulWasted for dreamsCarefully rippingTearing the seamsBut it's all luckA head or a tailIf only I had knownThat this would fail*I felt different when you kissed meIt seemed that for onceI was meA glowing starBurning silentlyPeaking in the nightI was all and nothingWrapped in a packageVisible from only the darkestAnd highest pointsAnd for once, love warmed my heart*You are everythingEverything to my hungry eyesAnd empty soulEverything to my dearest wishes and darkest fearsEverything to my faint grasp and passionate criesBut nothing to reality*Is there a space in your warmness for me to curl upA space in your heartFor me to breatheFor all things seem to lieAnd it seems too early to leaveDo you know you are my only wishOr so a gypsy says, my graceThese premonitions are carved insideToo deeply to eraseFor I have borne some joyous tearsWhile lying in wait for youBut then again, dearest loveI've borne some angry, too*I want a love, a grand enduring loveOne that will consume meMake my every breath another'sWrap me in their warmthPlace in my soul their nameOn my lips may rest their tearsI want a love, a deep loveA love that will come to my sideWhen no other doesOffering nothingBut his heartBeating only, burning only, for meA brave loveOne that will sail the seasNever once uttering a wordAs the winds ravages his soulTearing from him all his dreamsOne that will pick up the piecesAnd return, stronger for itI want a love who will hold meWhen there are no wordsNo moments to freeze in placeWhen my tears can't help but fallSomeone who will love me for meAnd not who he imagines me to beOne who whispers words into the nightThat only I, his true love hears..*Why are people secrets?Locked away from the worldTheir cries silencedTheir hearts beatenNot allowed to screamTo cry aloudWhen their pain wounds them so deeplyAnd no one understandsNo one seesNo even caresAs one after one falls from grace*I cannot help but call your nameFor you are a part of meA resident of my heartSeperate from the painI could not let you goNot for deathNot for lifeNor for anything I can't yet seeFor you my loveThe brightest starAre a piece of me*Why do I feel lostInconsequential in a world of anger and regretMy thoughts not vaildMy words of love less worthyWhile I cling to my heart in painBut lights are up aheadBrilliant, burning lightsConsuming meSurrounding meAnd maybe for onceI will not lose to darkness*I went to California to find some sunA life as blind as minePale stars shining downAs I criedI felt lost, smallAmid all the distortionAnd pettinessAnd angry heartsAnd then him...Shining like those starsA pale beautyWarming my heartA darkened soulFloating in it's depthWhile firmly attached to it's dreamsHolding my hand with just a gazeThat says everythingAnd anythingI'd ever hoped to hear*I'm getting stronger everydayBuilding up hopeMinds so simpleCan't understandThat I'm coming into my ownMy heart may beat slowAnd my tears may fall shortBut I'm on my ownIn a place I might escapeSoar out ofUnfettered by the pastAnd finally understand Why I'm hereOtherwiseIt seems like a waste of tears*Your face softly haunts my dreamsWrapping me in a mist I can't escapeMy heart grows warmAnd then freezes in fearNever knowingWhere your spirit liesYet your very presenceEnraptures my soulTrapping me in a slow oblivionA place where my fears wane quicklyAnd my steps grow steadyAnd your eyes become my whole world*That's it, so far, but I'll update soon! 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Thank you to my best friends Kristy and Rae, for tons of support! Thanks to Superhero, Rain King, and Animal for endless inspiration!And thank you for coming!I'll update ASAP...Much thanks again to everyone who has inspired me, and never forget that pain will pass and love conquers all. Much love and joy, and be sure to come again! Bookmark this page if you have to! Please!And any feedback is GREATLY appreciated!
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